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A-Z of Life – Attitude

positive attitudeA couple of years ago I wrote a series of posts titled “The A-Z of Life”.

Well, I’ve re-read them all over the last couple of days and realised just how far I have come on my journey through life since then.  Re-reading them now, I can actually see where my head was and what a mess I was.

So, I thought I might do another series of the “A-Z of Life”, using different words for each letter, but now I am in a happier, more positive place it will be interesting to compare the 2.

So, let’s start at the very beginning, as the song goes.

A is for Attitude.

Over the last couple of years I have tried very hard to improve my attitude towards life in general.

I was in a very dark place. Aside from having SC, I felt as though my life was worthless. I felt like a complete failure as a human being – it seemed like everything I touched disintegrated around me. I couldn’t see a way out from the bottom of the very deep, dark pit I was in.

I don’t know where or when or how, but one day I realised I had to do something. Life was rushing past and I was stuck in tar not moving anywhere.

I needed to seize back the power over my life.

But it needed to be done with little steps.

After reading many, many, many books I sort of sectioned my life out. Work, health, etc.

And then tackled one section at a time.

For example, with work after freeing myself of the franchise, I sat down and wrote list after list after list about what I was good at, what I would like from a career, what I wanted to do, etc. And finally, I literally had an epiphany about what I should do, and so I decided to do it. I love my job not only from the enormous job satisfaction it gives me, but because it’s something I created.

But the main thing that happened during this time was that I went from thinking very negatively about myself and life to thinking how lucky and blessed I am.

So that one small change from negative thinking to positive thinking does work.

You may not see it immediately, but if you think positive, you begin to act more positively and start off a chain reaction so that more and more areas of your life feel more positive.

I’m not saying that there aren’t little stumbles along the way – we aren’t perfect! And it is hard.  This week, for example, I’ve been a bit less positive, because I am trying to get into a play and I’m letting my nerves and ”Charlie’ get the better of me – literally to the point of nausea. But I just need to keep thinking positive and flip my thinking.

That’s the main thing I’ve learned – a positive attitude leads to a happier and more fulfilled life.

So think positive and keep smiling 😉

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2013 – A Year of Change

Apparently 2013 is a big year – the numbers when added up together make 6, which signifies change.

According to the lady who did my tarot cards a few months back, at any rate!

Whether you are a believer or sceptic of all things tarot/psychic/etc, I still believe things happen for a reason, whether you have a little tip-off or not!

She said that the next 8-10 weeks for me would be fairly traumatic.

Boy! She could not have got that more right if she had been sitting on my shoulder.

In a nutshell, let’s do a run down of my life in the last 12 weeks:

Thought I’d found ‘him’, but I hadn’t;

Didn’t know I was, until I wasn’t;

Didn’t like what I was doing, so I don’t any more.

It has been, to say the least, one hell of a ride!

And, to be brutally honest, not one that I would volunteer to go on again.

But I have emerged.

Battle-worn, scarred, but still very much alive and breathing.

I thought a couple of years ago I had reached rock bottom, but seems there was still a little way left for me to fall.

I am at the very bottom.

But I am still smiling and I am very much blessed in many ways.

I have SC.

I have my health.

I have my pride and self-respect.

I have a brain that still works.

I have the passion and drive to succeed.

I have so much to be thankful for.

I am free.

And, do you know what, since it is  a year for change, I don’t think I’m going to start climbing back up that mountain!

I’m going to build me a whole new one 😉

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The A-Z of Life – Fear

“The only thing we have to fear is fear itself – nameless. unreasoning, unjustified terror which paralyses needed efforts to convert retreat into advance” famously said President Roosevelt in 1933.

I’m not just talking about fear of spiders, snakes, other creepy-crawlies or nay other weird phobias out there.

I’m just talking about fear.

And it is true!

We do fear fear.

What stops us in our tracks? What prevents us from shooting for the moon,? Why do we shy away from life?

Because we are afraid.

But what is it exactly that we fear?

Do we fear the failure or do we fear the success?

If we can answer that then we can perhaps overcome our fear of fear,

We all fail at some things at some point in our lives. Some more than others.

However, what from that failure do we learn?

We learn to do things differently.

We learn that we cannot win at everything, and that in all walks of life there will be people better than us – no matter how much we, or those we love sometimes, bolster and boost our egos to an over-inflated size. (You’ve seen X-Factor, right?)

We learn to persevere.

Most importantly, sometimes we learn never to give up trying.

Why would we fear the success though? Of anything in our lives.

Surely, succeeding is what we are all aiming for, so it shouldn’t be feared?

But are we afraid that if we succeed, we will have nothing left to aim for?

Are we afraid that success might lead to happiness, and we fear the happiness maybe short-lived?

Are we afraid that we don’t deserve success?

Are we afraid that we wouldn’t be able to cope with success?

We shouldn’t be afraid of life, and surely if we fear fear, we are letting ourselves ultimately be afraid of life.

I’m afraid. I fear being alone. I fear being old. I fear being a failure.

But if we think positively, we can overcome fear.

I will never really be alone, because  I am blessed to have family and friends.

I cannot stop the march of time, but I can embrace the wisdom age brings.

I fear being a failure, but that doesn’t stop me trying.

Surely the worst thing to do is to let fear, for want of a better expression, get the better of you? For what will that bring or achieve?

After all, a life half-lived is half a life, and the worse thing anyone can do is live their lives in fear.

 

I found a wonderful poem by Suraj Samtani called “Losing Life to Fear”

In fear of being heard,
In fear of being understood,

In fear of not being heard,
In fear of not being understood,

In fear of being misheard,
In fear of being misunderstood,

In fear of hearing too much,
In fear of understanding too much,

In fear of saying too much,
In fear of saying too little,

In fear of being too enlightened,
In fear of not being factually correct,

In fear of being too bright,
In fear of being too ignorant,

In fear of being praised,
In fear of being bullied,

In fear of not being like others,
In fear of losing my individuality,

In fear of being ostracized,
In fear of being camouflaged,

In fear of being the attraction,
In fear of being ignored,

In fear of being too different,
In fear of being too common,

In fear of following others,
In fear of disobeying others,

In fear of being too gullible,
In fear of being too stubborn,

In fear of being used,
In fear of being misused,

In fear of rewards,
In fear of punishments,

In fear of responsibility,
In fear of expectations,

In fear of being trusted,
In fear of being mistrusted,

In fear of your lack of response,
In fear of your over-reaction,

In fear of eternal silence,
In fear of noisy communication,

In fear of your acceptance,
In fear of your rejection,

In fear of exciting you,
In fear of upsetting you,

In fear of loving you,
In fear of hating you,

In fear of your love,
In fear of your hatred,

In fear of being loved,
In fear of being hated,

In fear of thinking,
In fear of existing,

In fear of living,
In fear of dying,

In fear of being myself,
In fear of being another,

In fear of knowing myself,
In fear of neglecting myself,

I lost my voice;
I lost my identity;
I lost my self.

I lost this life;
I lost my life;
I lost life’s life.

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